Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Pondering the path of my feet...
My son, give attention to my words;
Incline your ear to my sayings.21
Do not let them depart from your eyes;
Keep them in the midst of your heart;22
For they are life to those who find them,
And health to all their flesh.23
Keep your heart with all diligence,
For out of it spring the issues of life.24
Put away from you a deceitful mouth,
And put perverse lips far from you.25
Let your eyes look straight ahead,
And your eyelids look right before you.26
Ponder the path of your feet,
And let all your ways be established.27
Do not turn to the right or the left;
Remove your foot from evil.
Sometimes a bible verse just jumps out at you. Today this one does.
I'm going through some things with my current place of employment. I'm questioning my employers moral values. I worry that I'll be dragged down when his choices backfire. I'm feeling like this is not where God wants me right now. So I'm applying to other places in hopes for other employment. I'm willing to leave soon without having somewhere else to go. Just the thought of going in to work fills me with dread. I don't want to be there. I don't want to be yelled at for things that are not my doing, not my responsibility. I don't want to feel like I'm being used. I don't want to serve alcohol to those who shouldn't drink, I don't want to be accused of not doing my job when I'm doing it to the best of my ability(especially since the only reason your doing it is so you can feel justified in not tipping). I want to work somewhere I feel valued, I get paid a wage(not just hoping my tips are enough to make the hours working worth it...most times they're not due to lack of customers).
My time is valuable. When I'm at work, I'm not spending those hours enjoying my family. When I'm at work I'm there for the company, customers, coworkers. I give 100% of myself. If I have to go in on my own time to do something for the owner, I want to be compensated for it. I'm about to start fall semester at college. I take difficult classes. I cannot work 30+ hours for someone who does not pay their employees or bills. My time would be better spent readying for classes rather then standing there praying for customers to come.
When your spouse starts getting frustrated with your boss, you know it's time to look elsewhere. When former employees keep coming in looking for paychecks only to get turned away, you know it's time to look elsewhere. When the ice machine company come to repo the ice machine, you know it's time to look elsewhere.
So dear readers, please pray that I can find other part-time employment. Or at least pray that my hubby and I can better budget his paycheck if I need to just quit.