My other blog...

I have another blog, at times I've thought about closing it down but then the skinny-but-thinks-she's-fat girl that's a part of me gets back to reading it and I keep it going. It's where I post most of my weightloss/eating stuff. I'm going to link it to here even though, to me anyway, some of the posts can be disturbing (yea like the day 3 years ago I was proud of myself for only eating 126 calories). I post on it kind sporatically. It bugs me to read some of the posts though, I'll beat myself up for eating 1700 calories or 1400 calories when I know that's not that bad. Especially since my bmr is 1592 so I'm burning off that 1400 calories just by being and out of that 1700 calories only about 200 is extra and that's not that hard to get rid of. Well the link is in the sidebar if you want to check it out go ahead.

Well, Now I just cross my fingers and wish very hard

I just sent in my app to a nursing program...I'm really hoping for this one, if I don't get in then so be it I'll try again later. I know I already have one in for the lpn program but I really, really, really(goddess are you listening?) really want to be a Rn not an lpn. This will save me about 5,000 dollars if I can just go straight into an Rn program instead of having to go through an lpn and branching over to Rn. I've gotten accepted once before in this program but I've also screwed up so bad the last semester at college that I'm afraid they'll just flat out say no. It'll be okay though 'cause all they can say is no right? If they do I just go on with plan B if that don't work then I'll figure out plan C but I'll get there. I actually did the app last week online today I just sent in my 25.00 and started sending in my letters of recommendation. 1 down 2 more to go. Bad thing is no one here has known me more then a few months and nearly everyone else I know are related. The whole big family from a small town thing, your related to everyone. It was a real good thing we moved 'cause most likely my kids would of ended up dating cousins and that just ain't right.
My hubby just wants me to decide on what I'm going to do and do it. He would rather not have to pay more then he absolutely has to though. He will though if needed without complaining...too much. He's such a great guy really. Actually I know he's waiting for me to start earning the "big bucks" so he can slack off and spend all his time fishing and playing video games, lol.
Well that's it I guess for now, gotta go put my "sick" kid to work. He was sick last night had a migraine and vomiting but no fever. Today he seems just dandy 'cept for a nasty cough that he's had for about 2 weeks, if it doesn't go away this week I'm going to have to make a doctor's appointment I guess. He gets this way every year a couple times a year so I figure it's allergies but since my niece has been unofficially diagnosed with asthma with similar symptoms I'm thinking I outta have my ds checked out.

She Doesn't Know She's Beautiful

We go out to a party somewhere
The moment we walk in the door
People stop and everybody stares
She don't know what they're staring for

She don't know she's beautiful (never crossed her mind)
She don't know she's beautiful (no she's not that kind)
She don't know she's beautiful
Though time and time I've told her so

There she goes just walking down the street
And someone lets a whistle out
A girl like her she just can't see
What the fuss is all about

And she don't know she's beautiful (never crossed her mind)
She don't know she's beautiful (no she's not that kind)
She don't know she's beautiful
Though time and time I've told her so

Morning comes and her hair's all a mess
That's when she thinks she looks her worst
It's times like this she don't know why
I can't take my eyes off her

'Cause she don't know she's beautiful (never crossed her mind)
She don't know she's beautiful (no she's not that kind)
She don't know she's beautiful
Though time and time I've told her
She don't know she's beautiful (never crossed her mind)
She don't know she's beautiful (no she's not that kind)
She don't know she's beautiful
Though time and time I've told her
She don't know she's beautiful (never crossed her mind)
She don't know she's beautiful (no she's not that kind)
She don't know she's beautiful
Though time and time I've told her so

~She Don't Know She's Beautiful, Sammy Kershaw

My sister and I were talking about this the other day. Do you or are you know the woman who's extremely pretty but does not seem to get it. We or I should say she, I know this person but not as well as my sister does, know someone who has the best skin hair color combination(she has this porcelain skin and black hair and and dark eyes really pretty) and my sister says yea but she(the other person) never sees it. I'm kinda the same way...I know I'm not ugly but it sure does my ego good when I go to take care of my residents and they comment on how pretty I am, how good a complexion I have. I'm no where as thin as I used to be but I still get cat calls and turn the occasional head when I walk down a street. I know when I look at myself in the mirror I must see something totally different then everyone else sees. I see every blemish, every ounce of fat, the muffin top over my pants, the jiggly arms , the stomach pooch (all of which are getting smaller slowly but surely). One of these days my self-esteem will let me see what everyone else sees I'm sure of it. I just hope my daughter realizes how beautiful she is and no one ever tells her different. No actually I won't her to think she's just slightly over average, 'cause I don't ever want her to think she's better then anyone else (even though in my eyes she'll always be) .

Skip Day

I'm a big fan of skip days. Ever so often a kid (or an adult for that matter) just needs to take a day off and relax (especially when spring fever hits). I'm letting my youngest son have a skip day today. He worked so hard for it to. Last night he goes "Mommy I won't feel good tomorrow, 'cause I had a headache yesterday." This morning it was "I don't feel good, I didn't sleep good last night." Of course this was followed with the required moping around and shuffling of feet. Now he's all better. Perfect attendance is overrated and I won't have one of those kids who stress out if they are actually sick 'cause it will ruin their perfect record. So what, take a day. These kids become the adults who show up to work no matter if their serious ill or not and spread their germs to everyone else causing them to become sick.
Skip days at my house are somewhat fun for the kids. They do have to do some work but they also get to spend some time one-on-one with Mommy and that's pretty special to them. I'm glad it's special to them and right now I'll treasure that 'cause the day is coming soon when they will not want anything to do with me...well I hope not, I know not all kids get that way but there's a good chance of it.
I'm applying to an RN program as well as the LPN one. If I get into the RN program I'll drop my application from the other one. I hope I do but I'm afraid I won't. All they can do is tell me no not right now, right? Right now I just have to gather up my letters of recommendation, transcripts and everything and send it in and hope for the best. They require a 2.5 gpa...mine may be less given my last semester at college was horrible. I know I'll have to write a letter saying why it was horrible (I was accepted into this school once before but couldn't attend; it took me 2-3 months to get through everything to get in, I could of ringed my hubby's neck but that's in the past..sorta, lol). Anyway I'm going to give it a shot and if I get in great, if I don't then I'll try the lpn-rn route either way I'm hoping to be through with it all before my oldest gets into high school...I have 4 years so hopefully. Well off to get things done around the house today, I'm so glad I have today off, this weeks been stressful at work.

Wow, I'm really starting to slack here.

I seem to only be doing one or two posts a week lately. I mean to do more it's just that I'll do a post and get busy and before I know it nearly a weeks gone by. I've not really got a whole lot going on but I've got a whole lot going on. I'm working near 40 hours a week and Hubby's on an out-of-town job so it's just me and the kiddies so I've been busy and having a few minutes to sit down and blog has been rare, well maybe medium-rare. Okay that was corny, I am sorry.
I just placed and order for some Tupperware tumblers, I hadn't tried or sold any yet but my sister has and says her customers are raving about them so I just had to try it and right now they are bogo till the 25th. She said that one of her customers just fills it up and tosses it in her bag and it doesn't leak a drop and if you put a straw in it and knock it over it'll just leak a drop or two. Speaking of which, Queenie, I just got my new catalogs in and will get you one out in the mail after work.

I need to get burning.

It's been a while since I've finished a burn. I've got artist's block I guess. I get lots of ideas but just can't seem to get myself to pick up a piece of wood and burn on it. I do have an awesome idea for one that I am going to attempt to do.
Here's the rough, really rough, draft:



It's going to be a lion statue with a empty city street behind it...think I am Legend where the streets are all grown over and wildlife has returned. I'm going to try and do it for a competition for a website/community I'm a part of. I'll probably draw it a couple more times before I put it to wood (mostly cause I want to get it just right and I cannot erase once I start burning).
Anyway that's an idea.

Well guess I need to get around today and try to get some stuff done. My table I got from freecycle is lovely and heavy. I barely carried it in the house, right now it's sitting in my living room. I'm a hoss and I'll manage though, lol. I've not had a dining room table in so long it's going to be so nice. The four chairs are in pretty good shape, minus a little artwork from the kids of the people I got it from. That's okay those magic erasers are wonderfull and slipcovers aren't hard to make and I've got plenty of fabric.

Good Day...

It really has been, only thing that would of made it better would of been if my hubby could of spent it with me. He's on an out-of-town job this week hopefully he'll be home tomorrow or saturday but it's a big maybe. He called me Tuesday while I was out with a friend and her daughter and my kiddies celebrating her birthday to tell me he may to work all weekend. That left me in a very tight weekend, our daycare doesn't operate on weekends. Luckily my friend is a good friend and said she would watch the kids for me if needed.
Anyway back to my day. I went shopping 'cause my oldest ds wore pants to school today that looked like he was prepared for more rain. Yep he's ready for the Mississippi to flood into our front yard. Good news is, they finally fit his waist, lol. Given our recent history with the school, I figured I outta go and buy him some new jeans. I got the other two boys a pair or two as well. None for dd 'cause she's the one I usually buy clothes for and has enough if only she would put them in the laundry hamper. So I got jeans and a shirt for ds1 and then went to Wally world and bought a few things and came home and mowed yard for two hours.
That yard is gonna be the death of me I swear. It's big, it's hilly, has ruts all over, not to mention the ditch oh and it appears at one time it must of been all dug up 'cause there are mounds that could of only been created by heavy equipment. I have a big ass bruise on one calf where something flew up and hit me and my hands are sore and have blisters and I'm sure I'll feel my abs and arms/shoulders in the morning. What's worse all I have done is the front yard. I still think that's good, especially since my front yard is at least half an acre if not a little more. I'm just hoping the rain holds off tomorrow until I get the backyard mowed and the garden finished tilled and planted.
This evening I'm going to get a dining room table and chairs that I got off of freecycle. She said it needs refinished and the chairs are a little rough, but I'm up for the challenge. It'll be nice to put the little folding table and chairs away and sit down to family dinners. I've been looking forward to family dinners since we moved in here. Turn the t.v. off and all 6 of us sitting around the table talking, joking and spending a few precious minutes in each other's company.
So I feel like I've accomplished something really, not much but I feel like I've worked. I still have to clean house but I'm saving that for tomorrow when it's raining.